As some of you may know one my goals in life is to leave a footprint in someone's life and make a difference. If it is the last thing that I do, I'd like to leave a positive impact in this world or at least in the corner of the world, where people I care about live. I guess in a way, we all want to matter and we are all seeking that in one way or another. Another thing that we are looking for is acceptance and recognition and if we do not get that, we start seeking it somewhere else, and sometimes we forget that this may hurt someone along the way.
So, if you can relate to the post or if it speaks out to you, please let me know.
This week has been strange for me and I am not talking about the work. I am talking about this week being the time when I have realised a few things for myself and have decided that it was time to evaluate my life and take actions to become a better person. This week, I had celebrated my first year at the company that I work for. Naturally, it made me think about the growth and personal development but not only work wise. Here are a few things that crossed my mind:
What did I learn in one year: I have learnt that as long as you are doing a good job and have something to look forward to at work, you are following the right path. I have learnt that the people you work with can either make it or break for you and it should be one of the most important factors for you when you are considering a job change. I learnt that nothing is set in stone and things can change in a blink of an eye. And sadly, I learnt that no matter how hard you try to nourish your relationships with colleagues/friends/significant others, if they are not making that same effort - you are doomed.
What do I see has changed in me? In one year, I have become more confident in my role at my job and ironically lost any self-confidence I had left when it comes to being me around my friends. I already knew that a word is sharper than a knife and yet it hurt me the same when I heard something about myself that came from someone very close to my heart. I have also learnt that at times, I can be too naive and trustworthy and think well of everyone and then pay the price in one way or another. I have definitely gained more experience in this last year, which is always good and adding to my professional portfolio.
What have I achieved in the past year? My blog went live and this is an achievement in itself. I cut off any loose ends and relationships that hurt me. And although, this may not be technically an achievement - this is something that I have struggled with a lot. I learnt how to make decisions and how to let go of some things.
What do I need to improve and develop within myself?