No, I am not a writer, not even close. All I do is put my thoughts on paper, but everyone could do that, right? I guess one of the reasons I started writing was to capture a moment with words rather than pictures. Truly, I first put my thoughts on paper to express my struggles of life in boarding schools and since then I can't stop writing. Since then I started paying closer attention to the World around me and observing people and situations. Sometimes, I would get carried away and imagine life stories for them, have you ever done that? I imagined happier life for these people, giving them something that I thought they needed most at the time. And then I had a crazy thought: these people could be all characters in my novel. Like I could ever write a novel, right? - I laughed at myself. The though still makes me smile and yet a girl can dream, right?
Of course, most girl dream of a big white wedding or an intense career and then there is me an outlier. Have I ever thought or dreamt about either? Yes, both actually. All through college, I was making bold statements that I would become the next CEO that the rest of the world would aspire to, like Mark Zukerberg or something. After a few internships and jobs, I have come to realise that the chase for an intense career is probably not in my life line. To be able to survive in a business world, one needs to be a shark and get to the goal no matter the cost. I care too much about others, situations and details, thus, an easy target for a shark. Of course, one day, if I become a writer, I'd like to run a small bookshop and a café but this would be my mini business and I won't chase for an unspeakable sum of money.
As for the other dream, yes as any girl I dreamt of a big white wedding. Yet what I have grown to realise is that I do not want a wedding rather a lifelong marriage with my person. At the end of the day, I am picturing a future with my man, a small house, two kids and maybe a dog called Cotton. The wedding date has lost its importance and I'd be just as happy to elope.
So yes, I dream of being a novelist one day. No, not just another love story author, but a novel that will make a difference. After all, a bigger objective in life is to leave an impact. A small fingerprint on someone's life. Maybe just by having a short conversation with someone, they will feel better or by reading my novel, they will decide to make a change in their life? It is not an easy goal, but I am slowly getting there, hopefully. One day, I'd like to be an invited speaker to TEDx Conference. My ex-boss laughed at me when I mentioned this at work, making it even harder to have faith. Perhaps, as a motivational speaker, reach out to a larger audience of young adults and share experiences and thoughts that could help them in their lives.
In the 25 years of my life I have met so many different people that I believe were meant to come to my life at the time. Each of them teaching me something: I have learnt the pains of betrayal, the hurt of not being recognised, being used (kindness can be your enemy), the warm feeling of love and the ache of a broken heart. Maybe at the time, I didn't care for appreciation for such moments, but I am thankful to these people for helping me become who I am today and shaping me into the person that I was meant to become. Just like me, at that time, these people were lost and needed guidance, needed to know that they are not alone here and there will be someone there by their side. I also consider myself lucky, because even through the hardest times, there are people that are standing by me and I am proudly calling them my friends and family. Without my friends, I would not be where I am today, openly writing about feelings and emotions. Thank You.
I am not a writer, not even close, yet today I took a step closer to that dream, by starting this blog and reaching out to all of you by sharing experiences and thoughts.
Take a step closer to your dream and start today. Do not let the fear take control of what you could really do and if you need support turn to your friends and family.
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